It's been a while since my last update. For some reason I have found it hard to want to update my blog. Circumstances have been coming against me that have left me in doubt concerning things that are happening in my life right now.
A few posts back I mentioned going back to school to become a teacher. I started back and was approached by a company for work in the Bio-metrics field. I took the position and had to drop all of my classes. The job lasted a little over 2 months due to the contract ending. I've been a substitute teacher since the contract ended and have done a little investigation. It seems that I can become a teacher without going back to school. All I have to do is pass the Praxis exam (which I have), pass the PLT exam (which I am studying right now), and pass a core exam of the subject I want to teach. So it looks like that is what I will be doing for the next few months.
That was one issue bothering me, the other was the thought of "Why even update this?" That thought has been in an out of my head so many times over the past few months. I guess there is really no excuse for it, except for letting the thought take hold of me and listening to it.
Being single is hard. I loved being in a relationship -it was fun. I enjoyed going on dates, buying birthday presents, Christmas presents, and those random gifts. I liked the time just talking to someone. Living where I live makes it even harder finding someone because of location. I know God can send a person in my path at any given time. I know He can send someone from far away just so our paths can cross -I believe that with every fiber of my being. Anymore I have began to wonder what is the point? Why even look? I haven't found her yet and doesn't look I will any time soon. I go out in public and see all these happy couples laughing and having a good time while I'm over here staring off into space. I suppose what I am getting at is that it is hard at times. I know God's word says fear, doubt and unbelief are of the Enemy...guess I should stop listening to the lies of the Devil.
for the future wife:
I apologize for being a Debbie Downer. I am sure you have felt the same at some point in time...and if not, you're freaking awesome! Right now I pray for over all wellness. I pray your mind is renewed each and every day but God's word. I speak blessing into your life! I pray the Lord answers each and ever prayer you pray. I pray you find your hearts desire.
