Another Letter to her

It's been a while since my last update...

I have been thinking and I would like to do something different or something I haven't done in a while.

Hello, future wife.

I don't know when you will read this, but I want you to know that I cannot wait for the day we meet. I occasionally find myself thinking of you -well, the idea of you. What you look like, your smile, your laugh, even the way you brush your hair behind your ear using your fingers. I think of where we will be, what kind of home will we have, even what our future children will look like. One thing I know for sure though is that God will bless us. If we keep to His word, lean and trust in Him, He will guide and bless us in all things.

Waiting isn't easy. I've waited for what seems forever. I've been in some bad relationships in the past and from time to time have felt like throwing in the towel, but I cant do that. I choose to wait for you.

Writing this kind of reminds me of message in a bottle type things. #randomThough

I want you to know that I am praying for you -every day. I pray for your health -that you will remain healthy with no sickness. I pray for blessings to fall on you -that God will bless you in all that you do. I pray for favor in all that you do. You are a Queen and a daughter of the most High God and He wants to bless His children.

Have you ever been in the middle of something and think to yourself "This would be perfect if....?" Example: When you're out walking on a breezy Spring day when it's the perfect temperature for no coats. I often think "This day would be perfect if she (you) were here." The thought gives me hope that we'll meet someday soon.

You are one amazing woman. You were fearfully and wonderfully created and you are beautiful! I can't wait until the day we become one and I get to spend the rest of my life taking care of you. I will be one blessed man.

All my love,

Your future Husband

Come boldly to the throne of grace

"Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace..." Lord right now I speak to situations and circumstances that may be going astray and declare them to change for Your glory. I speak health and wholeness into my future wife's body. I speak to any mountain in her way and declare it to move -be gone!

Lord, You know what I've been though in the past. Guide me on the path to her. I'm not going to follow the world's standard of  chasing women for temporary relationships. I'm place this in Your hands. I know deep down that my future wife is praying for me as well and praying for the day we meet! It gets hard waiting -I've impatient at times. So I pray right now that You will help me when temptation may come and show me to hold on and not fall into those relationships that are not suited for me.

I don't know who she is. I cant see her, nor can I touch her face at the moment. I don't even know if we've ever met, but the best thing I can think of right now is to pray for her -where ever she may be. Pray blessings over her. Pray health over her. Pray no lack over her. Pray protection and provision over her. Just be with her, Lord, every single day of her life and let her know that she is loved.

I wait with patience. I am anxious, nervous, and excited for the day we meet -the right time. Continuing these small prayers are a must and I look forward to the day when I see beautiful you walking up the isle and us being committed to one another saying "I do"

All these things I as in Jesus' name. Amen and amen!
 

Doing things differently

Since the weather is breaking I thought maybe it would be nice if I started my running schedule again. After working chest and back exercises -which consisted of a ton of push-ups and pull-ups, I went for a short run. It's funny how your mind can just wonder when you're out in nature. The sun was shining and the wind was blowing. It wasn't too bad of a day for the most part -the sun was warm when the wind would die down. Anyway, I saw some little kids out playing in a yard, just having a good time, and I sparked memories of myself as a kid.

For me as a kid it meant going to Grandma and Grandpa's early in the morning while mom went to work -she's a teacher. Every morning mom would take me to their house, drop me off and drive to work, and every morning around breakfast time, Grandma and Grandpa would take me to Hardee's. It's crazy how you can remember those events from such a long time ago. 

Eventually I started school, caught the school bus from my Grandma and Grandpa's and rode it home their house when school was finished. After getting off the bus it was play time until my mom came and picked me up -which wouldn't be for a few hours. Sometimes my cousins would be there and we'd play outside in the woods. I remember there was this huge (well, it's not so huge now) rock that we called "The split rock." because it was split in three pieces. So many good memories playing on that. 

When I was old enough the play sports I started playing little league basketball and softball. The older I got the meaner my dad seemed to get when I played. I'd do something "stupid" and he would yell at me. I felt embarrassed when he would come to my games. It came to the point when I started playing grasshopper basketball that I told him I didn't what him coming to my games because all he would do is yell. I know deep down that he probably thought he was helping, he just didn't know how to express it. 

To make a long story short, I stated thinking of my future children how I would do things differently then how my dad did to me. Of course in his defense, he wasn't a christian back then and didn't know better. Thank the Lord he changed his life.

For the future wife:

You are a virtuous woman - a woman of noble character. A daughter of the most high God - an heir to the throne! I pray that God continues to lead and guide you with all you do! Bless her Lord -Bless her beyond measure. Keep her safe from harm and let no ill will come to her. Amen!  

The things people say

The things people tell you....They sometimes spark a memory or thought that you wouldn't otherwise think on your own freewill. 

I've been letting my mind get the best of me over the past couple of days, and I'm not really sure why. The thought of always being single plague my mind to a point where I can't stake them. When you're looking for a partner and not succeeding, it's inevitable for those thoughts to creep in. I just feel as if I have been single for such a long period of time that I don't even know the rules anymore. I don't even know what is expected of me. I suppose the perception I hold of myself plays a part in the whole thinking as well. I'm a sort guy -5'4. I've had very little success in the dating world because of my height. And I know what you're thinking, I thought the same thing...up until I am told "You're too short for me." -And not just one time, this has happened multiple times! I'm not what you'd call a hunk, in fact I'm kind of skinny. Blow after blow it starts to have an impact on your confidence level. Then comes the whole idea of meeting people. I work with a bunch of guys. There are no women around me so meeting someone at the work place is out. There are no women my age at my church, so church is out. I live in a super small town with nothing to do, so that is out.  Maybe I'm just lazy...

So yeah, I've been dealing with those thoughts for the past few days...keep me in your prayers

For the future wife:

So,  I'm going to try and relate this to my top post. I hope you don't think those thoughts too. Always remember how much you are loved by Jesus. He loves us so much had He was willing to die for us. He paid the ultimate price for each and every one of us. Lord, I pray right now for my future wife wherever she is in life. Be with her right now. Send your angles to her location and protect her. Speak to her mind; comfort her. Let her know that You are with her. Bless her, Father. Pour out your unmerited favor on her life. Lead and guide her, Lord in her journey.  

equally yoked

How many of you have heard the importance of being equally yoked and the importance of it? Like many people, I heard it preached in church numerous times. I knew what God's word said and I knew how dangerous it was to unequally yoked in a relationship. Still, I ignored those teachings and have always got my heart broken. I didn't listen to the voice of God when he spoke to me...Thank God for His mercy and grace.

Godly woman. Godly relationship.

I do miss being in a relationship. I miss the fun the dates, the fun of finding things in common with that person, and just that companionship knowing someone actually cares for you. Being from a small town where the closest city is 40+ minutes away makes it hard to meet people -it really does. People will disagree, but to me it's a challenge. I'm not a bar type of guy -what kind of Christian woman are you going to meet in a bar?  I sort of made a New Years resolution to myself that I would attempt to meet more people and so far I'm failing miserably. It's only February though.  

For the future wife.
Always remember that God fights for us! He is for us and not against us. If we ever need something, all we have to do is call on His name and He is faithful to answer. Never think that you are never enough. You are more than enough -you have God on your side. I speak confidence into your life. I speak blessings into your life! I speak wholeness into your life! You are an amazing woman - bold, fearless, faithful woman. You are beautiful, caring, and compassionate. Never let the enemy speak those negative words to you.

Songs for sunday

Practice for Sunday's worship service went well. Song line up is 1: Days of Elijah 2. Blessed be your name, 3. Our God, 4. Cornerstone. Still need a drummer, but I think we did well without one. I'm still waiting for my new guitar -I like my Ovation, but I want an all wood guitar. So yeah, it's been awhile since we last played -mostly due to weather. Those freak snow storms canceling church pushed us back. I will be the first to admit that there is still a bunch of stuff for me to learn on guitar, but I absolutely love playing. It's one thing that I could never give up and I am so thankful for the person who taught me how to play. It's one ability that I hope to pass down to my future children.

For the future wife:

Lord, continue to make her a woman of noble character, compassion, wisdom, diligence, and skill in whatever she puts her hands to. I ask right now, in Jesus name that you will replace any insecurities she my have with the ability to trust you and to rest in your word. Be her shield and guard her from the evil one. Let your favor rest upon her. Bless her and prosper her.

First day of spring

Have there been times in the past when you tried and failed at something?  I know I have. I've had my share of failures through life. I think sometimes that I am afraid of failure -or just afraid to fail. I've over come many obstacles in my past and occasionally had to dust myself off and try again, but still, deep down, I feel like that fear still lingers.  Maybe I'm afraid that I wont measure up. Anyway, I did some reading, and this phrase came to me: "Man's expectations do not determine your success." Then I hear God say: "Who says you're a failure?"

First day of spring by the way...